Last month, I told you about my experiences of seeing signs during a time several years ago when I was contemplating quitting my job. The reason for the article was because my wife was feeling anxious about the possibility of getting let go from Target Corporations during their massive layoff.
She indeed was let go last Tuesday and her anxiousness is turning into nearly an all out panic attack at times.
I’ve assured her she’ll most likely find a job quickly, but she is extremely apprehensive about the situation and how it could effect our finances.
It reminded me of another circumstance years ago when Terri and I were going through some rough times financially.
It was around the mid-1990s when I was still working at Fingerhut and Terri and I were facing an uphill battle to try and mend our money issues. The “mending” included many days and nights of us arguing about our spending and how we were going to get things back on track.
One particular evening, we had a doozy of an argument and we both went to bed angry (a nuptial sin according to most family and marital counselors). That night I had a very vivid dream where I was walking along a beach where there were huge shards of rocks jutting out from everywhere and a torrential rain was practically drowning me. I trekked over and around the massive boulders and I remember feeling frustrated and worn out in my dream as I tried to find some sort of refuge.
As I scaled another hulking piece of stone, my eyes discovered a dark cave in the cliff and all I could think about was getting shelter from the rain. So I entered the cavernous hole in the rock.
As I sat shivering in the cave, I looked to the back of the grotto and noticed two red dots that looked like eyes. In my dream it immediately brought fear in me but also peaked my curiosity.
“Just what were those red beady eyes?” I asked myself in my dream.
So I rose to my feet and walked towards them. As I neared them enough to recognize they were, in fact, demonic eyes, I decided enough was enough and I turned away.
However, as is the case in a lot of dreams, my mind and body wanted to head in the opposite direction while my feet wanted to move closer. I was in a full panic as I ran as hard as I could towards the gaping hole in the cave, only to have the red, beady eyes pull me closer and closer to the darkness.
I remember also while I was dreaming this dream, I was most likely writhing around in the bed because when I eventually woke up, I felt like I had just wrestled a bear.
As the demon continued to reel me in to the deepest, darkest parts of the cave, I got to the point where I knew I’d have to turn around and face this hideous beast. And in that moment, I stopped my struggling and reeled around to experience my fate.
But surprisingly, the red, beady eyes and fiendish creature disappeared and a spotlight beamed down and just then — a white bunny rabbit hopped out of the darkness into the light. My heart stopped racing and I felt a calmness and sudden peace. That little rabbit had taken all those fears, anxieties and uncertainties and dispelled peace.
It was at this exact moment I awoke. I was amazed at how detailed that dream was and as I showered and got ready for work, I pondered the dream over and over, finally coming to the realization God had sent me a message through my dream. The rocks on the beach, the heavy downpour, the red, beady eyes were all indicators to me of our financial situation. Money woes were ever-present and consuming me and when I sought refuge from it all, I was still lured away by the enemy.
But through it all, I understood that God could calm my fears and make the situation right if I just trusted Him.
Just before I left for work, I woke Terri from her sleep, told her how sorry I was for our arguing and not trusting God and we both hugged and encouraged each other, fortifying our resolve that an answer to our woes was in our faithfulness.
As I drove down our driveway with the dream still fully entrenched in my mind, I wondered still how we were gonna get out of our dire financial circumstance. I still had some doubts.
Just then, a white rabbit ran across the road right in front of my car.
I smiled, knowing I no longer needed to worry. Everything would be okay.
(And by the way, that is the only time I’ve ever seen a white rabbit anywhere near our home in the 20 years we’ve lived here).